Food for Thought: Pornography Destroyed My Life and Redeemed My Soul

Lately, I’ve been reading articles concerning the damaging effects of pornography, how it deteriorates the traditional concept of human sexual behavior. I totally agree with the idea that addiction to pornography can cause a man/woman to devalue their opposite gender half to mere objects. I concur that too much fantasizing of “taboo” sexual fetishes (i.e. extramarital, incestual, pedophilia) with the assistance of pornography can cause a man/woman to withdraw themselves from reality to the point where they want to literally act out these taboo sexual fetishes in the material world. I understand that incessant consumption of pornography effectively appropriates the creativity of the man/woman, rendering him/her unproductive to the betterment and the evolution of humanity and life itself.

That last part right there lies the dilemma not necessarily for humanity as a whole, but for the individual melanated human.

Humans are constantly programmed from birth to be productive members of society. This has been the case since time immemorial when humanity became the dominant species on earth. A soul that is incarnated (or incarcerated) within a human body has voluntarily subjected themselves to this exploitation. The soul is pure sexual energy, and that same energy force is used to bring creativity and meaning to every fabric of the illusionary material world. Thus, a soul that is asleep becomes a battery for the cult of humanity to create a world that can secure its survival, no matter how fruitless the attempt. Not to mention, the human brain operates as a biological “matrix” designed to further entrap the soul by shielding the pineal gland (aka the “antenna of the anti-gods”) from the real unseen world.

The illusionary material world does not need any more new ideas, innovation, new arts, etc., etc., etc. At this point in time, it is in the best interest of melanated humans who have souls to stop exploiting themselves in the interest of maintaining their attachment to the material realm. No matter how noble the endeavor may be to save the material world from dissolution, in the end, their attachment to it has to DIE. The soul, an infinite energy source that was not created and cannot be destroyed, is not of this material universe. It wants OUT of the illusion. These are, indeed, the “end times:” the time to let go of temporal personas and existence as a whole.

The human body cannot fully comprehend or express the sexual nature of the soul. The human body would instantly combust if the full manifestation of the soul was allowed to be unleashed. Thus, there have been various systems and industries established over thousands of years by elitist entities to siphon the divine spark from souls mainly incarnated within melanated humans for the continuation of the humanity cult and the material world as a whole. All fields of education, art and entertainment, trade and commerce were originally created to uphold that status quo. Which is why sex is still such a taboo topic amongst the masses, especially sex that is simply for pleasure and doesn’t lead to reproduction (because how can the material world continue to exist if ignorant souls don’t find themselves back here through the reincarnation cycle?) In spite of the heavily sexualized marketization and advertisement in today’s modern world, sexual repression runs rampant among the common man and woman.

Which brings me back to the “damaging” effects of pornography I mentioned previously.

(Full Disclosure: Yes, I like watching pornography. I love the coitus act with all the glory of its grotesqueness and crudeness (minus anal sex, not a big fan, another topic for another day.) And my most preferable copulation occurrence is between a Black-melanated man and a Black-melanated woman, especially when it’s done with sincere sensuality and intimacy. In my honest opinion, the sexual communion between souls trapped in melanated human avatars is the only valid sexual communion on the face of the earth. I like my Black-melanated women big-boned, just like what would imagine the essence of the  Great Mother/the Divine Feminine would like in the physical…a thick Black-melanated woman with big voluptuous titties, a nice-sized pillow-soft ass, and a fat juicy black hole of a pussy that can make the most powerful and visions of the gods humble before her throne.)

The etymology of the term pornography is “(one) depicting prostitutes, prostitute, originally ‘bought, purchased’, to sell.” Of course, one would think that a man or woman watching pornography is helping to facilitate the act of prostitution as we have been TRAINED to perceive what prostitution traditionally to be. Yet, a man or woman watching pornography is being “prostituted” of their soul’s energy force for the benefit of entities who need it to survive. So, you shouldn’t watch the filth, correct? Let’s not be hypocritical here.

What if we expanded the definition of prostitution beyond the act of selling just sexual intercourse?

In that case, humanity has been selling itself out in some form or fashion since forever and a day to secure its survival as a species. There are infinite examples over the history of mankind that can be pointed out to prove that point. On a deeper level, the souls of melanated humans have been unknowingly (and sometimes knowingly depending on a soul’s incarnation) prostituted since the dawn of Creation to sustain creation as we know it. That’s why it’s said that prostitution is the oldest profession on the planet. It is the core of the human condition.

Yes, heavy consumption of pornography does numb your brain matrix, basically turning you into a mindless zombie. You can spend hours a day mesmerized by the amount of flesh and fetishes to your liking online, wasting your time. You should use your time improve your life and utilize your resources on more positive activities that are geared toward that improvement, right?

Why are you so concerned about improving on a life experience that is finite and neverlasting?

The lives we build through our human avatars is a defense mechanism to protect our fragile ego personas as we move around within the material world. We build these life narratives to bring meaning to these fragile ego personas instead of facing the reality that it is all a lie. The ego is supposed to work in service of the soul, not the other way around.

Has pornography destroyed my life? Yes, it has destroyed the life narrative that served the interests of my ego persona. The lie I told myself, that I was a good son, a good husband, a good father, a decent human being who was a productive member of society worthy of redemption. You can’t redeem something that never existed in the first place. My soul is the only thing that is real about me, it was redeemed when I accepted the fact that I am a sexual deviant at my core.

Does that mean I should express every part of my deviancy while I’m here in the material world?

It’s OK if you have a sexual fetish you are aroused by that tends to cause ostracization when manifested within the boundaries of the human condition. Nevertheless, from what I have witnessed so far in this incarnation, it is not prudent nor wise to express every imaginative thought, especially those relating to sexual fantasies, in the material world. The material world is based on order, not the chaos that the soul originates from. Some fantasies should be left in the realm of the unmanifested. That’s where the term balance comes into play.

You have to find your Eros in the simplicity of just being ALIVE and AWAKENED. That means possessing a soul that is fully aware of the condition it finds itself in and has the ability to practice restraint when it wants to give up all of its energy force in exchange for the opportunity to create an impermanent paradise in the material world. A soul that realizes that it is PARADISE encased within a human cocoon for a brief period of time until the time has come to be reborn again as a majestically divine butterfly.

So what if pornography causes me to objectify women’s bodies! The melanated female human form is the most divinely beautiful image in the material world, worthy enough to bamboozle me into reincarnating back into this illusion just to be mesmerized by it all over again. You objectify the female body long enough you won’t help but to break through the superficiality of life and into the mysteries of divine feminine, if your soul is ALIVE and AWAKENED.

I’ve learned more about the mysteries of life through my “porn addiction” than I have through my attempted abstinence from it. My attempt to subdue these primal urges made me realize the true unfiltered nature of my soul, that it is neither good or bad, nor does it need to be reformed whatsoever. It is a love so unhinged and chaotic, to comprehend it any further would do it no justice. Any life I have acceptable by societal morals and values keeps the beast from being unleashed.

Therefore, you have the existence of vices. The vice you have doesn’t have to be a gambling kick, a drug habit, an addiction to sex and/or pornography, or anything with a negative connotation. It can be diet that makes you feel good about your body, watching TV or even reading a book, attending social gatherings such as a party or a concert that gives that high of human togetherness, or even frequently traveling the world just to break up the monotony of your existence. All of these vices work the same, it gives you the opportunity to escape the mundaneness and remain somewhat sane in this illusionary madhouse. Everyone has their thang to get them through.

Look, I’m not trying to tell you to change your moral code or that it is OK to act a plum fool with whatever vice you have. What I am saying is that your actions to survive and build on your ego persona contradict the nature and true intentions of your soul. Your soul does not want to be conflicted with restriction by its human condition for all eternity. Your soul’s attachment to humanity must come to an end at some point.

How many incarnations does it take to break that attachment? It varies from soul to soul.

What if a soul WANTS to play in this material world indefinitely? I’m pretty sure that’s happening with a lot of souls.

I don’t think my soul falls in the category though lol.

Expressed through Killah Khaos

(Side Note 1: Check out the 1986 H.P. Lovecraft-influenced film From Beyond. It will give a clearer understanding of the hidden sexual essence tied to the pineal gland.)

(Side Note 2: People try to separate the terms erotica and pornography. Pornography is considered more explicit and exploitative, whereas erotica (the literature and visual art form of sex) is based on a story narrative. Erotica attempts to dress up the repulsive and raw aesthetics of the act of coitus behind a veil of elegance; pornography gives it to you straight with no chaser. Erotica is just as exploitative as pornography because of the narrative aspect where half-truths and straight-up lies are told to make the act of coitus more appealing than it really is. There isn’t much of a difference; either both should be called erotica or pornography. Since both forms arouse the spirit of Eros, I prefer erotica. That’s just my two cents.)

Food for Thought: Your Career Ambitions Could Be Impeding the Liberation of Your Soul

Rewarding career: Five ways to build a rewarding career - The Economic Times

 

 

From the Melanin Man:

Every man & woman, especially the melanated, that has been raised in the American K-12 educational system has been pressed and pressured to choose a career path of some sort. Whether it be STEM-related, business-focused, in the medical field or whatnot, you and I have been thoroughly interrogated throughout our formative years to choose an occupation that will pay some lucrative dividends. Maybe that occupation will provide you some mental and spiritual gratification of some sort, even though that is not the primary goal despite the fact that the “dream job” scenario is widely advertised and rarely if ever fulfilled. Your “dream job” doesn’t exist; it never did. It is a poorly constructed concept that has very little value besides making a human being feel better about being human. 

Feel good is for children.

For the melanated man /woman, you were/have been/continue to be programmed to work and sustain the current paradigm of civilization, for the benefit of its physical and metaphysical creators and not yours. A paradigm that is destructive and counterproductive to the souls of the original men and women of this physical manifestation. At best, the hell that we endure on the plantations of productivity is to maintain a decent enough physical existence to keep us from losing our minds. And the saddest part is that our parents, because of their own ignorance, are one of the biggest conspirators when it comes to slaving for the entities that keep us engulfed in a sea of despair. I’m pretty sure the mothers and fathers that birthed us don’t wish to send their seeds into the slaughter of exploitation, just like those same seeds would want nothing more to have the love and approval of their parents when it concerns their life decisions. Quite the conundrum, isn’t it? 

Are our career ambitions distracting us from liberating the soul that inhabits each Melanated man/woman? 

Should we lose our minds, the minds that we’ve been programmed with since Day 1, so we can attain a mind conducive to breaking the strongholds (seen and unseen) that keep our souls asleep?  

The soul’s ultimate goal is to liberate itself from the weeds of humanity and the physical realm entirely. Through each life cycle it has endured, every human avatar it has clothed itself with, the ultimate goal remains the same. The indigenous (the first, original to the land) Melanated man/woman reigned supreme for thousands, millions of years prior to their fall and subsequent appearance and rise of the caucasoid. To return to our former glory of yesteryears gone by is redundant, since as a whole we’ve mastered humanity and the material realm. It’s just that for some reason a significant percentage of souls have not wanted to let go of this physical illusion and have stuck around longer than necessary. The caucasoid has been able to alter the blood and DNA of Melanated men and women through so many nefarious means and methods over the last 500 or so years that the Melanated man/woman has become his/her own worst enemy and greatest supporter of the continued world-wide supremacy by the caucasoid.

 

” Whoever, therefore, would master a man, must first master that man’s blood. This must be borne in
mind if any advance is to be made in practical life. For example, the individuality of a
people may be destroyed if, when colonizing, you demand from its blood more than it
can bear, for in the blood the ego is expressed. “

Rudolph Steiner, The Occult Significance of Blood

 

The indigenous Melanated man/woman is in such savage, deteriorated state that it makes the war-like caucasoid appear refined and civilized. Our career ambitions, which are also tied to familial ambitions, have been born only out of a need to survive, which is expressed through the ego. The ego of the modern Melanated man/woman will do whatever it can to procure its survival according to the ways of the blood, which was manipulated and violated by the caucasoid. Esoteric writings of Kemet and Ancient India have made clear that in order for the soul to free itself from the physical realm, submission of the ego to the soul is the most important step. The modern Melanated man/woman must regain possession of their blood from the caucasoid’s programming before they can get a handle of their ego for it to even began the process of submission to the soul.

The soul can’t continue to reincarnate because it has failed to corral the ego and its attachment to the illusion of physical/ material. The game has gotten ridiculously more complex and sophisticated that in this day and age it has become damn impossible for liberation on any level. 

 

Keep learning fam,

The Melanin Man

 

When the E.G.O. (False Self) Has “Human” Goals and Ambitions to Achieve that Contradicts Your Melanated Soul’s (True Self) Transformation…

From the hood classic (sarcasm!) “Menace 2 Society”, where esoterically Bill Duke’s cop character acts as the soul interrogating the machinations of the ego, portrayed by Caine (Tyrin Turner’s character.)

…Suffering BEGINS!!!

The definition of E.G.O.:

E: Expectations, Expressions, & Emotions
G: Gone
O: Overboard

You gotta get OVER yourself to GET BACK YOUR-SELF!!!

In-joy your day peoples!!!

The Melanin Man